As a forward: This post is an attempt to move towards a more journalistic approach to blogging. It is meant to give you a real, honest look at my full-time blogging journey. I wrote this on an iPhone while I was traveling in San Francisco at the end of August, and September marks my 6th month as a full-time blogger. Wow, how time flies when you are doing what you love. In fact, I am overflowing with so much love that I am on a mission to share it with you all. Stay tuned on a HUGE announcement coming your way soon- it will change my life and most likely yours (yes, it’s that big). Here’s what I wrote on that lovely night in San Francisco:
I’m sitting here in San Francisco dining alone. This simple act is something I never would have thought I’d enjoy, but I do. It’s a great way to reflect on yourself and observe the world around you. It doesn’t matter what other people think of you, because deep down you know you are an amazing human being deserving of love, that won’t let the judgement of others shake you. These are the reinforcing thoughts in my head as I look at others looking at me. It’s crazy how my life keeps bringing me joy in unexpected moments. Perhaps life itself doesn’t bring them upon me, but rather, perhaps I have a new outlook on life.
Before I quit my job six months ago, things were in turmoil. I knew something had to change. At the time, I was running two full time jobs (my blog and my regular job) and things were hectic to say the least. I kept pushing and pushing against something I knew wasn’t right for me. It wasn’t working- I was exhausted, I got sick 5 times in 3 months, and wheels were spinning out of control.
One day, something happened that changed everything. I got into the car with my glass coffee mug on the top of my car, drove off and the glass shattered everywhere. I kept on driving without even picking it up… putting other drivers in danger in the process. Within the next week, I was so consumed in my two lives that I got in a car accident on the way to work. I put everything down and stopped. Everything. Nothing mattered in that moment except my health, which I was not taking care of. This was the universe telling me I needed to make a change. A couple weeks later, I quit my job to pursue my blog full time.
Since I quit my job six months ago, I’ve had ups and downs. There were points where I thought I would go back to a different corporate job for an additional, albeit false, sense of security. The thing is… we don’t need to keep on a path that we were not meant to be on. If you hate your job (not my case- I actually enjoyed my job) or if it’s too much for your health and well-being (my case), quit. You’ll find your wings on the way down. I had been told this before by many people who had already taken the leap, and by books that I have read and speakers that I had listened to, but I didn’t realize it until I did took the jump for myself.
A “job” is just a societal construct, if you truly, truly believe in what you have to offer this world, you will succeed. Throughout these past months, I can really and truly say that the soul-searching I have done (specifically and more intensely, as in this meditation post) in the last 3 months, has absolutely changed my life. I know the reason that I was put on this Earth- it is to teach you all how you can live a life of health, happiness and joy through creative expression, holistic living, and attainable, sustainable business practices.
I absolutely cannot wait to show you all what is coming for Bohemian by the Bay.
Until then with peace + love,